5 months

She is five months this week! I’m feeling it. I’m feeling how fast it’s all going. It’s really beautiful, in so many ways, but heartbreaking at the same time. I read yesterday that it’s a good thing each new stage of watching a child grow up contains so much to look forward to, or else it would be so incredibly sad. That resonated with my heart. I love each new day being a mom to a rapidly changing baby, but it hurts that you can’t have a single one back to do again. Just one of the ways this little one is shifting my perspective. Time was moving at the exact same pace before her, I just didn’t think of it the same way.


We’re planning to start feeding her solid foods soon. I’ve found myself in absolutely no hurry to get there. I picked up some baby spoons at Target, and subtly resented the purchase. I haven’t bought a highchair, and I keep semi-purposely ignoring the aisle at the grocery store with the rice cereal (what we’ll start with). It finally hit me that I think spoon-feeding her will just make her seem like less of a baby.  Who knew a little thing like mashed peas could make a person emotionally resistant to change, but guess what? It can!
Thanks for reading my introspective thoughts today. It helps me process to share them, even knowing to some they will sound like the repetitive complaints of a new mom. 🙂